I’ve been meaning to update our blog for sometime now. To be honest, the only thing preventing
me from doing so is sheer apathy and well, the hope of eventually having
something worth sharing. It turns
out that I am still struggling with apathy daily and well, there hasn’t been
much new to share and so I surrender.
I am now two weeks into my last year of seminary. In ways it feels good to be back in the
academic world and in other ways not so much. My mind feels so far, far away and my heart even further. Someone asked me if I missed
Guatemala. My response, “Yeah,
kind of. I miss the culture, the
flow of life, the people, our moto, the food, the cheap veggies and fruit, our
old neighborhood pool, the mountains, the sunshine, and well, I guess about all
of it.”
The good news is, I feel that my relationship with God is
growing immensely during this season of lament. Unfortunately, I have been a cycle of many ups and downs
over this past year but I have seen a change in my understanding of who God is. Last year at this time, I felt a lot of
anxiety and stress that I sought to fix myself. This year, while I still feel a lot of anxiety and stress
over the unknown, I am not as foolish to think that I can handle it all by
myself.
God has shown Himself as a provider time and time again just
within the last month and a half since I have been back. It has caused me to think more than
twice when I begin to doubt Him.
If you ask me how I am doing with everything, on the surface I may tell
you I am struggling but if you ask me how I am doing deep down, I will tell you
that I am confident that God is in control and that I know his plan is much
better than any plan that I can conjure.
There is one thing I know and one thing that I know will
never change. God is a faithful
and loving God. And so as I
continue my journey through this season of lament, I take great hope in knowing
that He hears my cries and that one day, this season too shall pass.
I want to quickly thank you all for your love and
prayers! Daniel and I appreciate
the support more than you will ever know.
This week could potentially be a BIG week for us in regards to his
visa. We are to soon find out
whether or not he got the expedite on his visa. Please continue to keep us in your prayers, especially as we
await the verdict on his case.
Thank you and God bless!
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